Is There a "Understanding God's Ways " For Dummies Book?

I have been pretty busy this week....My DH is off and we have been building a fence around the back yard. I was in the city on Monday for a medical procedure and slept most of the afternoon on Monday. Even though I was only out about 45 minutes I was wiped out all day Tuesday.

Wednesday was much better and needed to visit Jean. When I drove up to her house there were several cars in the driveway and my heart went up into my throat. It is over I thought. I hesitated to go in as I did not want to interrupt the family at this hour of their grief. As I sat in my car Jeannie Kay (Jean's Daughter) came out of the house and I rolled my window down and beckoned her to the car. I inquired as to the reason for all the cars? She was getting married ! It was a spur of the moment thing and her and Tony (her soon to be husband) were headed to the court house to pick up the marriage license.

One of the things that Jean has always wanted for a very long time was to see her daughter married to Tony and not just living together. They have been together for over 6 years now.
Tony is a wonderful man and when Jean got sick he and Jeannie Kay moved in with Jean to help take care of her. BUT........ Jean always wanted to see them married.

I prayed and prayed last Sunday, Easter, for the Father to take Jean home. I had my cousin Tisha praying with me that Jean would go home that day........ What a glorious day that would be for Jean, to go to see Jesus on Easter Sunday. I can tell you that I was just a wee bit disappointed that it did not happen. You must understand that I love Jean and hate to see her suffer so. Well........... please pass the "Understanding the ways of God for Dummies" book.

Isaiah 55:8 For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the LORD
Isaiah 55:9 For as the heavens are higher than the earth , so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.

If the Lord had answered my prayer, Jean would have missed the wedding of Tony and her daughter. Something that she has prayed and asked the Father for many years.

I went in the house and visited with Jean for about 1/2 hour while others were waiting for Jeannie and Tony to return to the house. The hospice pastor that has been coming over every other day to check on Jean was going to preform the service. They would marry right there in the bedroom where Jean was laying. I had been working in the yard with Dennis before I took a few minutes to go see Jean so I was not dressed for a wedding. It was just for family and I kissed Jean on the cheek and slipped out.

Hospice is there 24 hours a day now and that was Wednesday morning around 11:00. I have not been over there since and will go tomorrow.

Jean has lost her eye sight but she hears real well and still has her sense of humor. I was standing talking to her sister and Jean lifted her hand and made a yakked yak jester with her hand. Me and her sister, Lynett just laughed.

I will not again pray that the Lord take Jean home, I will leave that most important decision in HIS capable hands. How wonderful does the Father love those that love HIM? HE loves them enough to allow us to stay when all others would pray us gone so that we could experience the answer to a prayer that a mother has prayed for years........... HE loves us THAT much.

I am proud of Jeannie Kay and Tony and after this is all over I will take something over there that they can remember for years, but I think the memories of standing in her dying mothers room and giving her a gift that has no price tag.

Thank you Father God that sometimes the answer to our prayer is NO..

It is Friday night and Jean remains....... I wonder what other prayer HE will answer before HE calls her home.

Easter With Jean

Just stopping in to share with you my morning with Jean. It was a stormy rainy day here in Oklahoma and we had thunder storms all night. It was really a beautifully cool morning with a light rain falling.
I got over there about 10:15..
Jean has moved so close to Heaven that she no long communicates here.. She has no energy to speak and most of the time her eyes are closed.

I took her flowers.

She knew I was there, she opened her eyes for just a moment and smiled when I kissed her cheek. I sobbed and sobbed and could not help myself.

I moved the chair up closer to her bed side and I opened my bible to Matthew and read to her the story of Easter. I read slowly as the sobs would rise in my throat and I need to stop and gain control. After finishing the reading in Matthew I read to her from Isaiah 53:5. It is my favorite book in the bible and one of my favorite scriptures.

But he [was] wounded for our transgressions, [he was] bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace [was] upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.

I then put my cheek right on her cheek and whispered as I prayed. She had little strength but as I prayed she lifted her hand into the air and praised the Father with me. I cried and my tears fell on her face. I whispered to the Father that she was tired and ready to go home. I whispered to the Father that she has a Father and a Mother and a husband waiting.
I sat for a long time just holding both her hands.. She would grip tighter when I started to leave or move.
At one point I sang to her......... Amazing Grace and In The Garden... Now I am not a singer so it was just a joyful noise. She just laid there and did not move.

Then something happened...... I began to pray in my heavenly language. I pray in the natural and I pray in the spirit.. When I began to speak in tongues her eyes opened wide and she looked at me...... Wide eyed. She watched me closely as I prayer........ It was the most amazing thing.. Her spirit was hearing my words and understood the language. Her spirit man understood! Her spirit is alive and well and ready to go to the Father.

........ How precious a time it was.......

I sat quiet for a long time and she slipped in to a sound sleep... I kissed her on the cheek and I knew that I would not see her again this side of heaven.