Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Disappointed ? Then Grieve

AND GREAT EXPECTATIONS BRINGS GREAT GRIEF


When Others Disappoint  You-------   Grieve------

"Trust in Him at all times, O people; Pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us." Psalm 62:8 (NASB)

I read the most wonderful devotional the other day and it brought understanding to my spirit man. I have put a link at the end of this post if you would like to go and read…….


We as Christians learn many things along this walk with Christ. Lessons learned through heartache are lessons remembered. I have been told many times to expect others to do something is just a way of setting yourself up for disappointment.
I did not listen. Many many times in my Christian walk I have set myself up an many of those times I had disappointment.That is where I have been for the past couple of months now and the grief that the disappointment has brought  great grief.
Something that I did learn many years ago but failed to bring it to my memory is that we Christians expect everyone to act according to the Christian standard. Everyone cannot, without the Holy Spirit to lead and guide and direct them they will live according to their nature and not the nature of God.  

The Holy Spirit in our lives is there to keep us yes, but HE is also there to lead us,to bring us to repentance. HE is there to bring us to maturity in Christ where self becomes less and Christ becomes more.  To teach us to give out of ourselves for others and to think of needs of others before we think of needs our ourselves.

  We have been born again. Now we are no long of the seed of Adam, but of the linage of Christ, born of incorruptible and not corruptible. Born with all the attributes of the Christ and imparted to us the gifts of the Holy Spirit by which we bless those around us.
That is the goal of the Holy Spirit, to bring us to the place that we are a blessing and not looking to be blessed. 

The world on the other hand an those that abide there do not have the Holy Spirit as a guide and counselor. They are doing exactly what they were born to do. Serve self.  We should not expect a Zebra to take on the characteristics of an Elephant.
A Zebra is born a Zebra  and is going to act like a Zebra. Those in the world are born of the seed of Adam and contained in that seed is sin and all of the attributes of the human race.  We must not and cannot expect them to do or act any other way. 
I got caught up in that this past few months and I saw the Father God open doors that was unmistakeably open doors for another to bring about great blessing. I talked and talked about what the Lord was showing me and what the possibilities would
come from going through that door. The Father God was offering a multitude of blessings just behind that open door.

Restoration of a family, a life changing opportunity for the one to whom the door was opened for.Unimaginable blessing and help to the one sitting just inside that door and reconciliation between two women whom have much heartache that could have been mended.
I had NO comprehension of someone not being able to see that open door. I had great expectations and held tight to that, even when everyone around me said that I would just end up being  hurt, I held fast. It was only just a few days later that the Father God went a step further and close two door in that persons life. They were unmistakably closed door,with the only way of escape , the open door here. They declined. 

I have spent the last 4 months or so with great grief over my great expectations. I have cried and asked the Lord why. Over and over and over......  Why do they not see,why was is right before their eyes and they did not see. We expect others to live and walk as we walk as Christians and they just cannot and we are in the wrong to place upon them something they cannot do. Even if that person is a believer we must not expect them to see what the Lord is trying to show them. We must let the Father God bring them to maturity. That is HIS job.
It is for us to pray that one day they will know the joy that comes by being a blessing to others. I had to repent and then grieve and never again expect others to do what they cannot.I will trust the Father God and the Father God alone for HE never fails and I will pray for the one to whom I expected more than they were able to do.After reading the devotional link below a few times I let go. It was time for grieving for a season but it is now time and for me to move past that grief that my Father God understands, it is time to just let go. 

Take the time to read the devotional. 


It is very short, but it will bless you as it did me. A link to the devotional. Read it when you get time.
Denise


Wednesday, December 8, 2010

HALLELUJAH!



HALLELUJAH!


Hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah
hallelujah hallelujah
Hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah
hallelujah hallelujah

For the lord God omnipotent reigneth
Hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah
For the lord God omnipotent reigneth
Hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah
For the lord God omnipotent reigneth
Hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah

Hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah
Hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah
For the lord God omnipotent reigneth
Hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah

For the lord God omnipotent reigneth
Hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah
Hallelujah

The kingdom of this world;
is become
the kingdom of our Lord,
and of His Christ
and of His Christ

And He shall reign for ever and ever
And he shall reign forever and ever
And he shall reign forever and ever
And he shall reign forever and ever

King of kings forever and ever
hallelujah hallelujah
and lord of lords forever and
ever hallelujah hallelujah
King of kings forever and ever
hallelujah hallelujah
and lord of lords forever and
ever hallelujah hallelujah
King of kings forever and ever
hallelujah hallelujah
and lord of lords
King of kings and lord of lords

And he shall reign
And he shall reign
And he shall reign
He shall reign
And he shall reign forever and ever

King of kings forever and ever
and lord of lords hallelujah hallelujah
And he shall reign forever and ever

King of kings and lord of lords
King of kings and lord of lords
And he shall reign forever and ever

Forever and ever and ever and ever
King of kings and Lord of Llords

Hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah
Hallelujah
Denise


Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Thank You

Thank you Edie........ You are just a blessing.........


Denise


Tuesday, November 30, 2010

EXcuse the Mess

I am trying to fix my header........ Seems it will not center! Any help out there?


Denise


Sunday, August 22, 2010

Grace

It is grace at the beginning, and grace at the end. So that when you and I come to lie upon our death beds, the one thing that should comfort and help and strengthen us there is the thing that helped us in the beginning. 

Not what we have been, not what we have done, but the grace of God in Jesus Christ our Lord. The Christian life starts with grace, it must continue with grace, it ends with grace. Grace, wondrous grace. By the grace of God I am what I am. Yet not I, but the grace of God which was with me.

D. Martyn Lloyd-Jones

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It is this grace that I fall upon during my day. It is this grace that keeps my heart living in hope. It is this grace that holds me close when I have no other to hold to.......  It is HIS grace.
Have a blessed Sunday my friends..



Denise


Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Through His Death- Restoration

Monday June 28th they gave my Dad 24-48 hours to live.  Tuesday July 29th early in the afternoon everyone was going to go home and take a nap and get something to eat. That left me alone with Dad. He was very conscious and talking and we had a precious two hours just to visit. We talked about a lot of things and laughed and cried. I have been caregiver to my Mom and Dad for many years now and the past year it has been just about 24/7. 

You could describe my relationship with my father as oil and water. Never the two to mix and according to my older brother PE it has always been like that. When I was old enough to put two words together and call it a sentence I was at odds with Dad. You see Dad was from the old school where women would keep house and cook and raise the kids and God gave me an attitude and the ability to share that attitude. That did not make for a sweet little daughter that Dad dreamed of. 


That Tuesday in the hospital we talked about the difficult times the past three years and I told him he had been quite the little butt. He laughed and agreed. I told him that I had forgiven him for being a butt and asked for forgiveness for being a butt back.  We cried.



I believe that God gave me those two hours so it could be just me and my Dad.  Not as caregiver but as daughter that was having to say goodbye to her Dad. 

Sometime during that afternoon Dad began to feel better and requested to get up and sit in his chair. I was amazed but we called for the PT guys to get him up.


I had been told by my younger son Chris that he had contacted my first born Darryl that lives in Springdale Ak.  Now many of you that have followed my blogs know that me and my son Darryl have been estranged for the most part of 23 years now. I have cried an prayed and cried and prayed for many many years now for that relationship to be restored.  I think it was sometime last year that I just had all I wanted and told the Lord that if HE could fix it then fine. I was letting go and and I would no longer pray about restoration. Fix it Lord was my last pray regarding my son Darryl.  


I had no idea it would take the death of my father. 

Sometime early afternoon around 3 or so into the room came both my son Chris and my son Darryl. It was awkward. I think it had been 4-5 years since I had seen him and I just did not know what to say. He first spoke to his grandfather (with whom he shares a birthday December 10) and gave him a hug and then turned to speak to me and asked me if I was going to give him a hug, and hug him I did.  I cried.

 
It was the most amazing couple of hours after that. Dad sat in his chair and laughed and talked and both boys laughed and laughed at the still so strong sense of humor that my Dad always seemed to have. 

It was a gift of God to my father and also to me.  


Soon the room began to fill with other members of the family and as evening rolled around it was time for Darryl to head home. Me an Chris walked Darryl out the hospital into the parking lot.  It was hard to say goodbye, but before he walked from us he asked if he could pray…  AND PRAY he did, and by the time he finished we three stood with tears flooding down our faces and the restoration of a mother to a son and a brother to a brother had been accomplished.  I cannot tell you what great joy filled my soul and in sorrow we said goodbye but in the knowing that while separated by miles hearts would never be again apart. 


My son Darryl sent a text message to me later after having left the hospital.  It said in part that even when my Dad was dying he was concerned for me and my two boys. I did not understand the message and later had the opportunity to ask Darryl to explain. 

You see, I do not have clear memory of those last few days and it seems that Dad was more concerned about me and Darryl and Chris having time to talk than spending time with him. He told Darryl to make sure and spend time with me and talk. “You have not spent enough time talking” . Chris assured Dad that they would find time to talk but for the moment they were wanting to spend time with him. 

He made the statement one more time.  


Darryl shared that with me only last night.  I cried.  Even when so very very ill Dad was watching out for me. Even when he most likely knew that those precious moments spent with his two grandsons would be his last here on earth, his heart was turned toward me and my boys.  

My brother Paul spoke at my Dad funeral service and although I do not have it here I so remember the very last statement that he made before returning to Mothers side.

In this life, he gave back more than he took”  


That was my Dad, in his home going, he gave me a gift most precious.  My son Darryl………


Hold fast to your faith, you never know when the Father God will answer. 



Chris, Dad and Darryl December 1977 


Friday, April 30, 2010

Blog Award

 I have never seen this site before but it was very nice of her to list my Samaritan Women blog as a featured blog this month.  Just thought I would share....
Have a blessed weekend........





Denise


Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Myrrh

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

This Morning's Meditation

C. H. Spurgeon




"A bundle of myrrh is my well-beloved unto me."—Song of Solomon 1:13.
YRRH may well be chosen as the type of Jesus on account of its preciousness, its perfume, its pleasantness, its healing, preserving, disinfecting qualities, and its connection with sacrifice. But why is He compared to "a bundle of myrrh"? First, for plenty. He is not a drop of it, He is a casket full. He is not a sprig or flower of it, but a whole bundle.


There is enough in Christ for all my necessities; let me not be slow to avail myself of Him. Our well-beloved is compared to a "bundle" again, for variety: for there is in Christ not only the one thing needful, but in "Him dwelleth all the fulness of the Godhead bodily," everything needful is in Him. Take Jesus in His different characters, and you will see a marvellous variety—Prophet, Priest, King, Husband, Friend, Shepherd. Consider Him in His life, death, resurrection, ascension, second advent; view Him in His virtue, gentleness, courage, self-denial, love, faithfulness, truth, righteousness—everywhere He is a bundle of preciousness.

He is a "bundle of myrrh" for preservation—not loose myrrh tied up, myrrh to be stored in a casket. We must value Him as our best treasure; we must prize His words and His ordinances; and we must keep our thoughts of Him and knowledge of Him as under lock and key, lest the devil should steal anything from us. Moreover, Jesus is a "bundle of myrrh" for speciality. The emblem suggests the idea of distinguishing, discriminating grace.

From before the foundation of the world, He was set apart for His people; and He gives forth His perfume only to those who understand how to enter into communion with Him, to have close dealings with Him.

Oh! blessed people whom the Lord hath admitted into His secrets, and for whom He sets Himself apart. Oh! choice and happy who are thus made to say, "A bundle of myrrh is my well-beloved unto me."

                                                                                                                                                   C. H. Spurgeon

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This was my morning meditation.  How it greatly encouraged my heart.  HE is sufficent in all that we need. In HIM is everything and we have need of nothing.   I love the last sentence   Oh blessed people whom the Lord hath admitted into HIS secrets and for who HE sets Himself apart!   FOR WHOM HE SETS HIMSELF APART!  

He has set Himself apart for you today.............  As a sweet smelling savor.. Ask of HIM what you need..



 Myrrh Tree



Resin from Myrrh Tree



Denise


Friday, April 9, 2010

Sweetly Broken

I pray today…….. to be Sweetly Broken

To the cross I look, to the cross I cling
Of its suffering I do drink
Of its work I do sing
For on it my Savior both bruised and crushed
Showed that God is love
And God is just

At the cross You beckon me
You draw me gently to my knees, and I am
Lost for words, so lost in love,
I’m sweetly broken, wholly surrendered
What a priceless gift, undeserved life
Have I been given
Through Christ crucified

You’ve called me out of death
You’ve called me into life
And I was under Your wrath
Now through the cross I’m reconciled 

At the cross You beckon me
You draw me gently to my knees, and I am
Lost for words, so lost in love,
I’m sweetly broken, wholly surrendered

At the cross You beckon me
You draw me gently to my knees, and I am
Lost for words, so lost in love,
I’m sweetly broken, wholly surrendered

In awe of the cross I must confess
How wondrous Your redeeming love and
How great is Your faithfulness

At the cross You beckon me
You draw me gently to my knees, and I am
Lost for words, so lost in love,
I’m sweetly broken, wholly surrendered


Saturday, April 3, 2010

Going Home-- Where Real Life Just Begins

The gift of Calvary in a song..   Take 5 minutes and listen.....read the words as they sing... I think they are what angels sound like....... 
....... GOING HOME.....





Denise


Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Explosions







Thy word have I hid in mine heart, that I might not sin against thee. Psalms 119.11

But the Comforter, (which is ) the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, HE shall teach you all things, AND bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you.

"For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds, casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought
into captivity to the obedience of Christ". (2 Corinthians 10:4,5)

Now I listed the three scriptures first and in order of what I want to talk about.

You have heard me speak many times here in this blog of our spirit man. I do that because it is where all things happen. Our outer man dies daily but our inner man is renewed daily. We are alive in our spirit man and in our flesh we have decay.

Jesus told us that HE had to go back to the Father and if HE did not go back then the comforter could not come.

The comforter… Paraclete The form of the word is unquestionably passive. It can properly mean only "one called to the side of another," and that with the secondary notion of counseling or supporting or aiding him. That him is us.

The Holy Spirit , Paraclete is a gift from the Father and that gift is the answered prayer to the Father from the Son. Jesus prayed that the Father would not leave us alone, that HE would keeps us while in this world and answer came in the form of the Holy Spirit of promise.

Holy Spirit brings to our remembrance the Word of God . He leads us in that truth of God's Word. He uses the word of God that WE have hid in our hearts to do the warfare that we so desperately need today.

We can study and we can read and we can memorize (personally something that I have never tried to do) but the human mind is incapable of remembering all those things. As we read the word of God we must understand that it is alive. Unlike other words on a page it is living and it is working in us to accomplish those things that the Father has spoken over us. It is alive and it resides in our spirit man NOT our soul.

Try as we may we are helpless to do anything outside of the power of the Holy Spirit that dwells within us. We are powerless and the sooner in our Christian walk we learn that the greater victories we will experience.

If we read that scripture we see that HE uses the word remembrance. HE will bring to our remembrance the things that Jesus has spoken to us. As we live in the world and as we move though this life we WILL encounter hardships. We will.

NOW

When we fail to read and hide the word in our heart then when life comes at us HE has very little to bring to our remembrance.

First HE needs to bring a revelation of the scriptures that is needed to combat the darkness at hand and then HE can impart to us the weapons of our warfare.

When we hid the word of God in our hearts THEN when life comes at us HE will rise up in our spirit man with the weapons that are not carnal.

When fear comes , and it will, when despair and confusion and grief and any of the attributes of the darkness rise up to consume us and cloud our vision, the Holy Spirit will explode in our carnal minds the weapons needed to win the war, and those weapons is the word that we have hid in our hearts. HE bursts forth above the shouts of the darkness with words of Truth.

Weapons, they are not carnal, they are MIGHTY to the pulling down of strongholds.

I have experienced this many times in my walk with the Lord. I will find myself struggling with life and the bombardment of lies that so easily come from the enemy. I have listened and in floods the fear and grief or sorrow or whatever emotion is triggered by the lies. THEN from within me comes explosions of the word, it comes up from my spirit man and it is ALWAYS the scriptures that are needed for that warfare. Always.

He bursts on the scene of my mind and overrules the lies of the enemy. Sometimes I wonder when in the world I read that scripture or sometimes and most of the time I do not even remember studying that passage.. However, the Holy Spirit remembers and from the depths of my real man he brings truth. Truth to bring comfort, truth to bring counsel truth to bring joy over sorrow and rejoicing over despair. HE comes and HE brings with HIM those things that I have hid in my heart.

HE brings weapons and they weapons that bring every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ.


Study… read…. meditate….. listen…. fill your spirit man with the word and when evil comes, the Holy Spirit will come on the scene with might and power and HE will bring forth the truth that lies within you. HE will bring to your remembrance whatsoever the Christ has spoken. What greater power is there? None…….

Denise


Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Closing For A Few Days

I am closing this blog for a few days.......... but I will be back....... I am changing the looks of it and need just a bit of time........... I want to start posting here more than at my Life at My House so need a face lift.............

Hugs



Denise


Wednesday, February 17, 2010

BUSY LIFE


BUSY LIFE

While up and busy with my day and goals to be reached but finding that time is just a vapor and some of those goals will go back to the list and sleep till tomorrow.
We get caught up with what we think is important and the Father God has such a gentle way of bringing us back to reality. Not our reality but HIS.
After all it is HIS dreams and HIS desires and HIS vision for our lives that will bring to us contentment and peace. We so often forget that when we struggle for what we THINK is our destiny. And in saying that, nothing need be said further.
There is no struggle in HIM.

Be still, HE will draw you back to what HE beholds when HE turns HIS eyes toward you.

HE so knows how I love music and I have my Christian station going most of the day. It is a gentle breeze that blows across my spirit while I work. Most of the time not really listening but just letting it works it's magic to my soul.
This morning HE did what HE does best....... HE gentle broke my heart in the words of a song.



Empty Me


I've had just enough of the spotlight
When it burns bright
To see how it gets in the blood
And I've tasted my share
Of the sweet life
And the wild ride
And found a little is not quite enough

I know how i can stray
And how fast my heart could change

Empty me
Of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition
And the poison of my pride
And any foolish thing my heart holds to
Lord empty me of me
So i can be
Filled with you

Ive seen just enough of the quick buys
Of the best lies
To know how prodigals can be drawn away

I know how I can stray
And how fast my heart could change
Empty me
Of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition
And the poison of my pride
And any foolish thing my heart holds to
Lord empty me of me
So I can be
Filled with you

Cuz everything is a lesser thing
Compared to you
Compared to you
Cuz everything is a lesser thing
Compared to you
So I surrender all

Empty me
Of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition
And the poison of my pride

Empty me
Of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition
And the poison of my pride
And any foolish thing my heart holds to
Lord empty me of me
So I can be
Lord empty me of me
So I can be
Filled with you.
Filled with you
Empty me



Sending hugs to each of you this Lords day.



Denise