Wednesday, April 8, 2009

We Finally Spoke About The Unspeakable....


I just go home from spending time with Jean. She grows weaker. There is considerable change from the last visit.
I shared with her about the last week of Christ.. So many interesting things about HIS last week. I have studied Monday and Tuesday but have not looked at Wednesday yet.
I was going to post them each day but days get away far too quick anymore.
As I sat and talked to her about the reason that Jesus went in and cleaned the temple of the money changers on Monday before HIS crucifixion, she sat wide eyed and listened just as she did many years ago while sitting under my teaching. I smiled as I would see her eyes light up when the truth hit her........

Anyway, back to Jean.

She now has no energy to cough to keep her lung clear. There were a couple of minutes today that I wondered if I were going to have to grab her up and call for help. I cried.
Today we spoke of the unspeakable things. The what if's. I asked her that if I do not see her again on this side, will she promise to be at the gate when I get home. I will want to see her. She cried.


I talked about her chimes that she hears. I shared with her that I believe that she is closer to heaven than she is to here and that made her smile. We both agree that she is moving daily toward the Father.. We both just smiled.

I may be out of line here but I have started praying that the Father God take her home on Easter Sunday! Now HE can do as HE pleases but what a day that would be.

She then asked me to help her daughter. An only child, bit of rebellion still at the age of 39 but she is lost. She has not yet given her heart to the Lord and Jean is grieved that she is having to leave her before she knows that she is going to be ok. I promised. We both cried.


I hugged her neck once and then again. I held her hand for a long time and told her again how I loved her. I cried and told her I was sorry that I was crying. She understood and then she cried again. I think it is not so much of her home going as it is missing her and hating to see her struggle so.,

As we sat and talked, things were going on in my spirit man and I have made some life decisions. I find that the Father God will move in just when we least expect it and HE will come through a door that we did not ever know was there. While sitting there listening to Jean, HE was doing a work in MY heart.

We talked about the victory that Easter brings and how I would miss her so.

I do not know is she will be here tomorrow. She cannot eat or drink. She is sleeping more and more. I pray that the Father will just let her sleep, and then wake up at home.


I have shared with her the gals here on the blog and she would have loved to been a blogging buddy with each of you. I am looking for a good picture of her.. I will post it for her home going...

She has the heart of a lion and the spirit of a dove. I pray that the Father take her home soon.

I will see her again....

19 comments:

Karen said...

I have always loved that quote by Helen Keller and see the truth in it more and more each day.

Still praying for you and for Jean...will add her lost daughter.

So sorry for the pain, but rejoicing for God's work in your heart...

Denise Elizabeth said...

Oh wow you are a blessings. I am so thanksful for you. I will read your posts often. I'm also waiting for HIM! Blessings Denise

Shirley said...

Denise, you are such a wonderful friend for Jean....at this time when she needs you....you are there. I can't even imagine how hard it must be for you. I know God is with the both of you there. He is your strength. I pray that God speak to her daughter's heart through this.

Hugs to you, my friend.

Diane said...

I'm so glad you can both talk openly. That's so precious. You're a good friend Denise, she's blessed to have you.

Donetta said...

Holding you...your loved holding you my friend.
It is that Jean s name ...her name means...
Gift from God.

I named my dove her middle name Jean.

Your only beginning to untie the bow.
This gift will take the rest of your life to unwrap.

Annette said...

I'm crying here with chills all over my body and wondering if I will ever have a chance in this life to feel your hand in mine, and to be able to look in your eyes as we talk about our farther, I wish I could have listen to you teach about the love of our Lord, but it's because of you I want to find a spirit filled church, wasn't able to go last Sunday cause of John being in the hospital. shes so blessed to have you. I have that same message from Helen on my comment page... I love you Denise, and I hope one day I can feel your sweet hand in mine, the same hand that you laid on people while you prayed for them, I can already tell you they have Gods love in them...
LOVE YOU, LOVE YOU, LOVE YOU!!!!
Annette
p.s
I've been checking your post frequently, and yes, I agree...Easter Sunday would be a great day to leave this world and go home.

Hootin' Anni said...

....soon she will be in the hands of her maker. Then, no longer suffer. It's good, I think, that you talked about the 'hereafter'...it's just a peaceful thing to do, no matter if there was crying.

Edge of Design said...

I don't even know Jean and my heart is breaking for her and you.

Sharon said...

My heart goes out to you dear friend.Wish I were there in person to give you a hug.Much warm love~Sharon

Mississippi Songbird said...

You are in my prayers, Sweety
have a Blessed and Happy Easter Weekend! Bunches of hugs!

Mary Isabella and Kiley too! said...

I am praying for all of you!!!....m...

Margaret Cloud said...

I could not read this without a tear in my eyes. It would be a blessing at this time if the Lord took her home while she slept. I am saying a prayer for her. Hope you have a blessed Easter.

Cora from Hidden Riches said...

How wonderful of you to be there with Jean! As I have followed your blog, I have seen the Lord working in YOUR life as you have walked with Jean through this Valley of Shadows! Thank you for sharing this journey. I only pray that I will be as faithful as you have been if I am ever called to walk with someone up to Heaven's gates!

Cora

LisaShaw said...

Dearest Sister, I will pray for her daughter and I continue to pray for Jean and for you as you walk with her on part of this journey. Soon she will rest in the Son for eternity...no more pain, tears or concerns. Just peace.

And then...

you will meet again one day and rejoice together in the Lord.

Love you.

Deb said...

I AM IN TEARS!! But now girl I will rejoice for this part of the journey now. . .oh sweet Jesus she's comin home. . .Denise, the comforter is here with you it's ok now:)

valerie said...

I'm sure thinking of you this evening Denise as I'm reading about Jean. You are a very precious friend and I know Jean is so thankful for you.

Yes, praise God you will see her again!

Love & prayers,
Valerie

Mary said...

Denise,

I hope that when Father God calls me home that I have a friend like you by my side to help me with the passing. You are a true friend and I'm sure that you brought comfort to Jean, even though you cried. You will both miss each other, but she will be in Heaven, where time is not of the essence. She will meet you at the Gate.

If you see Jean again on this Earth, please hug her for me and tell her to look for Aunt May. They would love one another.

I am praying for Jean to sleep away and wake up in the presence of our Heavenly Father. I am praying for you, that He will send His angels to comfort you when Jean passes and I am praying for Jean's daughter who needs to come to know HIM.

Love you, my friend. Happy Easter to you and your loved ones.

Hugs and blessings,
Mary

kansasrose said...

tears...sooooo much love in this post! Praying that Jean has her Reunion with our Lord soon. I'm so sad and sorry that your dear friend Jean is going on ahead...but she will be there at the gate to welcome YOU when your time arrives hon! She sounds so brave and loving. I will pray for her daughter too...Love you hon!

ps Your lovely card and note were such a blessing! YOU are a blessing. Thank you dear friend.

Lallee said...

What a precious aroma of Jesus there must have been in the room with both of you. Your friend is in my prayers. God has allowed you to share in such a beautiful way.