Wednesday, October 29, 2008

He Is My Dwelling Place..........


He is sitting on a tree stump I think..... I have not really ever thought about it. The grass is a very very lush green and it seems to be perfect. About 2 inches tall or so....... It is very very soft to the touch and to my bare feet it really seems like a thick carpet.
There is music coming from somewhere, there is always music but this time I looked to find the source but it seemed to come from , well "everywhere". Just to HIS right there flows a brook that flows just fast enough to add it's own form of music and it is contributing to the ever growing tranquility of this place. It flows over millions of tiny pebbles that each own it's own color and size ner a one the same. It is inviting.
I look to be in my mid 30's or so, and that is based on my energy and ease of movement.
Most of the time HE is just clapping HIS hands and smiling real big as I dance.
My dress is very "flowy" (is that a word?) It reminds me of the long flowing skirts of Gypsy's that you see depicted on TV and in movies. It is white and long down to my feet. I cannot tell you what the top of the dress is like, I guess I have not paid much attention to that detail.
I am dancing and in my hand is my red tambourine. Every once in a while HE throws HIS head back and laughs out loud. HIS long brown hair enhances HIS beautiful features and HE causes me to pause just to watch HIM laugh. HIS clothing is just regular, white skirted robe like thing with a rope belt. I cannot see HIS feet so not sure if HE is barefooted like me or not.
We spend the afternoon (or so it seemed) me just dancing and HE is just watching and laughing and clapping HIS hands.
The moment so overwhelmed me as I was engulfed by HIS presence and the peace that HE brings that I began to cry. Deep from within my spirit man came unquenchable waves of gratefulness of HIS love.

It seemed like a long time and it seemed as though I had just started when the nurses turned the machine off and I was moved out of the MRI machine. I was so shocked that the 20 minutes had passed that I guess there was a strange look on my face. The girls told me I did good and did not move a muscle. They had no idea that I had been dancing. They escorted me down from the table and when steady on my feet I had the need to wipe the tears off of my face. It was two year MRI for my breast. After finding A Typical cells almost two years ago now, then the surgery and biopsy and such my Dr wants me to have an MRI every two years. It was yesterday. October 28th at 1:30 p.m.
I am fearful sometimes and other times I am very fearful and this was one of those times. Oh I am not afraid of the machine or the tube that they roll you in, I am afraid of the possibility. All women share that fear.
Many years ago amidst the turmoil of a marriage with an abusive husband the Lord took me one night when I was in much fear to a safe place. It was hard for my mind to allow me to stay there for more than a few minutes but over the years I have learned to go there and I am able to stay for the duration of the need.
That is where I went yesterday as they were rolling me into the machine. I knew that I would go there thus I refused the Valium that they offered. I did not need medicine to calm my spirit, I knew who I was going to see.
I wanted to share with you my safe place. HE has one for you............

In Christ
Denise

p.s. Hospital called just a few minutes ago....... MRI is clean.
As I sit and type this my mind goes to a precious lady by the name of Deena. Pray for her.. she is facing a fear that no one can imagine.
Deena, God has a safe place for you........ Go there often.......


28 comments:

Denise said...

I love you, and I am praising God that the MRI was clean. Now, go dance, and play that tamburine sweetie.

Sharon said...

I'm so thankful that your MRI was good! I have a safe place as well. :)

Tracy said...

Oh thank heavens all is ok! What a wonderful experience you had though while in that machine. I am so thrilled the tests turned out clean!

You have a special award on my blog Denise. Thank you for all the wonderful support, friendship and prayers you have shown to me through out the months!

Hugs and blessings!

Annette said...

What a beautiful blog you have, I found your blog from Sweet Deena's blog and Thank you for allowing me to visit, I do believe God had me come to your post for a reason and I am so happy I did, again Thank you for the privledge of visiting.

Annette

Mary Isabella and Kiley too! said...

I have tears running down my face as I read this post. Praise the Lord for the good report....m...

Mary said...

Denise,

What a wonderful post and praise God that your MRI came back clean. I was entranced with the description of dancing before the Lord. What an awesome place to go.

I don't envy you tearing your kitchen apart. Please take photo so we can see before and after.

Blessing,
Mary

Sharon Brumfield said...

You are right....we all share that concern...it seems we are hearing so much more about breast cancer. Praise God for your time with Him. He does inhabit the praise of His children...He kept you in perfect peace..what a God we serve.
I am so glad that you got the all clear..I don't know that I knew your past history.
I need to find a doctor here so that I can go in too.
I loved the way you talked about your safe place....it was sweet.

JC said...

What a wonderful post. I couldn't wait to read each word. So glad the MRI came out clean. I'm so glad you know how to go you King and my King whenever you need to go. He delights in you.

Flip Flop Floozie said...

YES!! GREAT news!! Thanks for sharing this with us. I go in for an MRI on the 6th!! it is going to be an open one because I cannot stand that enclosure!! Drives me crazy just thinking about it!! They are looking into my hip pain and back pain which has been going on for these past 12 years.. OH how I hope something can be found..Sandy

MelanieJoy said...

YAY I'm so glad everything went good! Thanks for sharing about your special place. love ya

Janera said...

Excellent news! Thank you for letting us know.

kansasrose said...

OH Denise! Praise God your mri is clear!!! Your words of Him are so beautiful and vivid!!! I'm doing a dance of joy for you hon! I love you and your spirit man. I will add your friend Deena to my devotions. {{{{{big midwest hug}}}}}

judy said...

PRAISE GOD....and you did even before you got the results of the MRI! I'm so happy for you.
Now celebrate HIM!

Dance on, sister. :)

countrygirl3031 said...

Oh Denise ~ I'm so glad the MRI was clean...The Lord was watching you dance!

Hugz,
Michele

Sam and SIM said...

Hey,
Greetings in Christ!
I like this post.Nice blog
In Christ,
sam4salvation.blogspot.com

Edge of Design said...

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Deb said...

That has tears in my eyes!! What a beautiful story, and Praise the Lord you walk in Divine Health:) thank you for your heart:)

Vicki said...

First, praise the Lord for a good report! I've gone through a couple breast scares, so I hear you! (This reminds me to get back to the breast surgeon). God is so good to walk with us through the fires of life!

love ya,
V.

Edge of Design said...

I just finished reading your entry. Wow! Amazing news and I'm happy for you!

Hootin' Anni said...

Denise, this is so beautiful that I have gooseflesh!! Then, to top it off, I read that your MRI is clean! Whoa........praise be!!!!

katie said...

Just found your blog.
Continue to dance in His love.
I myself am being sent for a consultation at a surgeons on Nov 10th after suspicious mammo.
I too will dance.

katie
primitivewoolen.typepad.com

Angie said...

Denise---first..I am so glad that the MRI went well and you are CLEAN! (But you didn't need them to tell you that!)

Second...His ways of calming a troubled heart are amazing...and beautiful. You put it very well.

Love you sister!

Joyce said...

Praise the Lord for the special places we can go. I am glad all went well.

Love and Hugs,
Joyce

Chris said...

What a beautiful and inspiring post, my dear friend. I could "see" you dancing. I could "see" Him too. I felt joy~~~how wonderful He is and how beautiful is your gift to share this vision. Bless you!

Sandra said...

I'm so glad the test came back clean. You handled that MRI much better than I handled the cardiac MRI. I was in complete tears by the end and begging them to just be done with it. Of course that was after an hour and a half! YIKES!

Love Bears All Things said...

This is so beautiful! I could see it all in detail. I can imagine that He looks down on me at times, smiles and just shakes His head like my earthly Daddy used to do. So overcome with the joy of watching His daughter and listening to her. I do not have a beautiful voice but oh how I love to sing. I believe that He loves to hear me just like Daddy did.
Praise God all is well with you.
Mama Bear

Mimi said...

what a beautiful picture of your safe place...thank you so much for sharing it with us...
I am also thankful that your MRI was good...

Mariel said...

oh, and you know what is most interesting about focusing on the son?? when you stare at the sun too long, the mage is burned into your eyes...if you stare at the son, praise Jesus, the image is burned on your heart!