Happy Mothers Day

................Ladies......... this will be my last post till next week sometime........ I have much to do and need to catch up on some bible study and some web design...... Also this is the most difficult time of year for me ......... Mothers Day............ Each year for many years I would send my two boys a card on mothers day........... I would let them know that they are the most precious gift that the Father God has given me........... To be their mother was such a pleasure........ I did that for years......


......However for the past 20 years now I only send one.......... I send one to my son Chris that lives here in the same town as do........... I have another son in Arkansas and it has been 4 years now since I was able to see his precious face........(and that for just a few short minutes) You may have heard me say this before but he has been gone from my home since 1985........... He has three children ages 16, 14 and 9...... I have seen my grandchildren maybe 5 times in their lives........... The first few years of their life I was not even allowed in their home........ I had to meet them somewhere in town for a brief few minutes or to share a pizza.......... Those times even ended about 10 years ago and my heart is still broken even though I have given it to the Lord over and over and over........ A mothers heart never heals of such things............


.........My two son's and I were very very close and spent most of their lives just the three of us......... Mistakes are a part of every persons life and I am no exception........... but I raised my boys well and they grew to be very good men with respect for others and a love for the Lord..... that cannot be a bad thing............... However........ we all know that there are people that will hold us guilty of our past for all eternity...... and that is my DIL......... forgiveness is not in her vocabulary and she judges me unworthy to be a part of their lives.................

................ That is all that I will say about this but just remember to pray this weekend for all the children out there that Satan has driven a wedge between them and their mothers.......... I can tell you that I do pretty good most of the time............ but some of the times I just cry...

............. We will have a family cook out in the back yard again this year.......... I will do that for my Mom.........We will have flowers on the little tables and I will fix my tater salad (everyone loves my tater salad) my DH will cook burgers and hot dogs on the grill......... Mom and Dad will walk over and PE and Alpha (brother and SIL) will share the day with us............... My son Chris will be there of course and I so love to see his face.................. We may have some neighbors over as we have in years past................ but I will be watching the back corner of the house just in case Darryl my son decides to break away and give his mom a hug...

........... Happy Mothers Day gals..................