Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Happy Mothers Day


................Ladies......... this will be my last post till next week sometime........ I have much to do and need to catch up on some bible study and some web design...... Also this is the most difficult time of year for me ......... Mothers Day............ Each year for many years I would send my two boys a card on mothers day........... I would let them know that they are the most precious gift that the Father God has given me........... To be their mother was such a pleasure........ I did that for years......


......However for the past 20 years now I only send one.......... I send one to my son Chris that lives here in the same town as do........... I have another son in Arkansas and it has been 4 years now since I was able to see his precious face........(and that for just a few short minutes) You may have heard me say this before but he has been gone from my home since 1985........... He has three children ages 16, 14 and 9...... I have seen my grandchildren maybe 5 times in their lives........... The first few years of their life I was not even allowed in their home........ I had to meet them somewhere in town for a brief few minutes or to share a pizza.......... Those times even ended about 10 years ago and my heart is still broken even though I have given it to the Lord over and over and over........ A mothers heart never heals of such things............


.........My two son's and I were very very close and spent most of their lives just the three of us......... Mistakes are a part of every persons life and I am no exception........... but I raised my boys well and they grew to be very good men with respect for others and a love for the Lord..... that cannot be a bad thing............... However........ we all know that there are people that will hold us guilty of our past for all eternity...... and that is my DIL......... forgiveness is not in her vocabulary and she judges me unworthy to be a part of their lives.................
................ That is all that I will say about this but just remember to pray this weekend for all the children out there that Satan has driven a wedge between them and their mothers.......... I can tell you that I do pretty good most of the time............ but some of the times I just cry...
............. We will have a family cook out in the back yard again this year.......... I will do that for my Mom.........We will have flowers on the little tables and I will fix my tater salad (everyone loves my tater salad) my DH will cook burgers and hot dogs on the grill......... Mom and Dad will walk over and PE and Alpha (brother and SIL) will share the day with us............... My son Chris will be there of course and I so love to see his face.................. We may have some neighbors over as we have in years past................ but I will be watching the back corner of the house just in case Darryl my son decides to break away and give his mom a hug...
........... Happy Mothers Day gals..................


18 comments:

berto said...
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Tammy said...

Denise, I hadn't known that about your one son and his family...I can just feel the hurt that you have over this and I will remember to pray for you this weekend.

Please have a very happy Mother's Day...
you are such a blessing to so many just through your blog- and who knows how many others, and I pray God blesses you mightily in the years to come!
Hugs,
~Tammy

Denise said...

I am so very sorry for your deep hurt my friend. May God heal this rift, and bring your son back into your arms. I will be praying for you. I love you.

Dee said...

((( hugs ))) Oh that must hurt your heart. I can feel it in mine already. Praying for you -- hope you see a face around the corner... D

SweetPea said...

My heart breaks for you. That is so sad. Not to be judgemental but is your DIL a Christian. I just hate to see anyone treat anyone this way but particularly as Christians we are called to a much higher standard. Basically, anyone who knows Christ should know better. However, I do know and have seem the powerful bonds of husband and wife portrayed in a negative way.

Pray continually for you DIL and son. God is faithful!!!!
Happy Mother's Day!

In Him,
Paula

Mary said...

Denise,

I have known this for some time and have lifted Darryl up to the Lord many times. I will be doing so again over the Mother's Day weekend. I will be lifting you up as well, my sweet friend. God has everything under control. Remember everything has a season, but I know in the meantime your heart is breaking. My heart goes out to you.

Love and blessings,
Mary

Mary said...

PS. Love your new avatar, but miss the lovely photo of you with your beautiful hat.

Honest to Ya~Ya said...

I hope you have a wonderful Mother's Day!♥

Love Bears All Things said...

Bless your heart!
This will be another year without my Mom who passed away in 2005. I miss her. I always send cards to my daughters and daughter in law but this year I didn't get them in the mail on time. I'll send them tomorrow and they'll be a day late since it takes two days postage. I gave Ms Esther a gift last Sunday. She is my surrogate Mother. My son will probably not even acknowlege Mother's Day. That is just his way and I don't hold it against him. We speak but rarely but I know he loves me.
Have a good day and enjoy your Mother.
Mama Bear

Love Bears All Things said...

I am a little ashamed. It has never happened before. Sometimes a week late or not at all but never on time. I went out to the mailbox to mail my cards and bring in todays mail. There was a card from my son. I almost cried. He thanked me for all the times I prayed for him and for my faith which I had lived out in an example in front of him. Thank you Lord!!
There is always hope, I pray you hear from your son this Mother's Day, also.
Blessings my friend,
Mama Bear

Sharon Brumfield said...

I can only imagine the hurt in your heart.
I will be praying for you girl.
Have a good day with you son and your Mom.

Mary Isabella said...

I read this through tears and I am still crying. My oldest daughter treats me the same and I have seen those Grandchildren very few times. The mistake was one she made and is not even married to him now. Mothers Day is very hard for me too. But we will cook out and the other children and grandchildren will be there. But I too always look for her. Thank you for this post. I will be praying for you. Have a very Happy Mothers Day...Mary

Mimi said...

Mother's Day is always the hardest day to get through when one of your children are holding themselves away from your arms...
I will pray for your peace and for your DIL's hardened heart to soften towards you.
Be Encouraged,
Mimi

SharonB said...

Denise~
I can not even imagine the pain your mother's heart must feel. I hope you have a Wonderful Mother's Day.

Deb said...

((((((HUG))))))

Have a Blessed Mothers Day:)
Deb

Sharon said...

Dear Denise,

That is so sad about your son and his family! It must truly hurt!! I wish I could give you a great big hug, but this will have to do.
((((GREAT BIG HUG))))

I hope you have a wonderful time on Mother's Day with your other son. I'll say a prayer for you and your family.

Joyce said...

So sorry to hear that piece of news.....I do pray for reconciliation.....at some point. Hopefully her heart will soften and you all can get past the "past." Whatever it may be. Everything in life really IS "Fixable" when we let God fix us and it and them.
Hang in there......and just keep your heart open and pure towards her and we pray she will recieve that.
See ya!
Joyce

MYSTI said...

I am sorry i have read this so late. I want you to know that I am so very sorry for your hurt and pain regarding your son and his family. You are right no one is perfect, and everyone makes a mistake. It is unfortunate that your dil wont let the past go.

I hope you had a good Mothers day anyway.

Hugs and blessings Denise