.....No time the past two days to blog and I can tell you that I really miss it... I have a small embroidery business at my home and this time of year it can get a bit busy........ I have one more day tomorrow to finish up some orders and then I will be finished for this holiday... I love my business and I love the fact that it is at my house..... but it can take the joy from Christmas if I let it.....
... The holidays are a bit hard on me anyway and I will let you in on the reason. I have two son's, the older one will turn 42 on Monday the same day as my Dad turns 90. The other younger son is Chris and he will turn 38 tomorrow. The oldest son married 22 years ago and he has not been in my home for one Christmas since then. The three of us were very very close and spent most of our years just the three of us....... We had some bad times but the good times really out weighted the bad......... He married a gal that refuses to share and over the years it was just easier for him to stop trying and succumb to what she wanted. They have three beautiful children that do not even know what a wonderful grandmother I would have been.. They live only 4 hours from me but I will spend another holiday without my son... Some days I think it is getting easier but it does not.... his children are 16 , 14 and 8..... I would love to have known them....
..... Then there is Chris.... he is a blessing in my life and he is the son that every mother would want. He has never married yet, (but I pray and I look) .. hahahah . He is in law-enforcement and has seen so many homes in turmoil and children in abusive situations. It has kind of put him off........ but I am hopeful that one day that beautiful woman will walk into his life and sweep him off his feet......... He too misses his brother...... It is like we do not exist... I am not sure how a person does that but it seems that it happens more than I would like to know...
...... I know that the Lord can bring the prodigal son home... I know that, but I would like to ask the Lord to bring him home soon........... I miss my son................. I will cry again this year as I do each year..... Wonder why it is the holiday that always turn us into a big ball of emotions?
.........Here is a picture of my son Chris on the left and his brother on the right...... I will take Chris out to dinner tomorrow night for his birthday and let him know how much his mother loves him..........
9 comments:
If your son doesn't get his act together, he has his own share of misery in the years ahead. He'll be living with the regret of what he did to you and unfortunately what he has done to his children. Denise, I've come to love you and I know that you'd be the first to agree with me that this is a tragedy for his children. They may even grow up to resent their own parents and it would be their own fault. I hope the teens get a grip when they turn 18. We can pray for that!
Aw Denise! ((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))
Denise,
I am so sorry that your son hasn't been in your home for so many years. I can bet that one day he will regret his actions and will do so for the rest of his days. I will pray that the prodigal returns. It is also a shame that your grandchildren have never come to know their beautiful grandmother.
I will keep you all in my prayers. Enjoy the birthday dinner with your younger son. He certainly is a blessing to you. Enjoy him! When that true love walks into his life, he will be smitten.
Take care, my friend. My prayers are with you.
Love and hugs,
Mary
well I know our Lord does a mighty fine work...our only job is to pray...
even though it tugs are those ol heart strings... I can't imagine not holding and talking to my son..
my daughter calls me every day.. she's at college...I call her my drama queen...smile..
I'll say a prayer for you my friend...
thank you for sharing and being honest..our oldest daughter / my stepdaughter is somewhat our prodigal child at this time.. it breaks our heart and my husbands..
Hello Denise:-) Thank you so much for coming by to visit my blog and leaving a comment...I love "meeting" new people! Oh dear, what a shame that your married son hasn't been home for so many years and hasn't let you know his children...that is so very sad. To tell you the truth, I'm a bit worried about my eldest son, 29, who got married in April of this year...his wife has decided they are not coming here for Christmas and this will be the first year I don't have him home for Christmas. She has also laid out a few rules for him so that's why I'm worried the same thing might happen to me as happened to you! She'll never know how much I'll miss him throughout the holidays. xox
My heart grieves with you. My oldest son is a prodigal also...but he is God's prodigal. We still have a wonderful relationship with him and his family...he runs from God. It's painful, but I can't even imagine the pain you must feel not seeing your son or being involved with your grandkids!
I am so sorry. I pray one day God will soften the heart of your daughter in law and son...until then you can have the gift of prayer toward your grandchildren.
I have one grandchild that my oldest put up for adoption before he got married. He is out there somewhere....I pray that God keeps and protects him.
I am really sorry you are going through this.
I pray that God will bring you all together again soon.
My youngest brother is married to a woman like your sons wife. She feels like our personalities are too strong for her to be around. Or something like that. We keep reaching out. We hope one day she will realize we love her.
How cool about your business. It will be nice for you to have a breather.
Denise ..I will pray with you that your son comes back home SOON..I have grands and you are right..Grandma's are a blessing NO child should miss.. I share your sadness..and will be thinking of you and praying..
Email me thru my BLOG I will give you my address..
fondly..Deena
My heart hurts so bad for you. I have seen things like this on Dr Phil and I just can't understand how someone can be so vindictive as to not allow her children to know her husband's parents!!! I have a friend whose daughter-in-law has been like this. I tend to blame her son a little, too, for not standing up to her in support of HIS parents. I've known him since he was just a little boy and I can't imagine him letting his mom and dad go through this.
My son is a prodigal, too. He has lived under bridges and in his car. He has spent time in jail. My son-in-law was responsible for bringing home and he stayed sober for 8-10 years. Then my son-in-law passed away and my son has become so bitter...
I am a Christian and I believe that everything happens according to His purpose. I take hope in that - it's all I can do...
~~~Blessings~~~
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