Thursday, May 14, 2009

Finding Mary and Discarding the Bustier !

A BLOG BREAK


Find out what pleases the Lord. Have nothing to do with the fruitless deeds of darkness, but rather expose them. —Ephesians 5:10-11

We learn what pleases those closest to us primarily by spending time with them. By trial and error we also discover things they like and dislike. When it is a relationship we really desire to develop, it becomes fun to make the other person happy.

The Lord has His own ways, too, and He wants us to know them and adjust to them.

We may think they are odd—at first—but the benefits of accepting Him as He is and adjusting to what pleases Him will result in great blessing and peace.

We have the wonderful advantage of having the whole Bible at our fingertips. This surely leaves us without excuse.

Unless we are careful, we will not only begin to take ourselves too seriously, but we will also fail to tune into the ways of the Spirit—simply because we already presume that we know them so well.

For we too must learn—by experience—what pleases the Lord. This means spending time with the Lord and developing a sensitivity to His ways. We must find out what pleases Him.

Excerpted from The Sensitivity of the Spirit (Charisma House, 2002).


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I fear that the past 6 years in my life has caused Mary to go into hiding and I have become Martha. I did not know that I was making the journey from Mary to Martha over these years but alas I was. The enemy is so subtle that we do not see him working in our lives, but he is working in our lives.

I so miss the days that I sat at HIS feet and enjoyed the communion that only HE can bring.

I have become a Martha. I cry more than I laugh, and if you knew me you would know that something was wrong. I am a character with a capitol C. Always have been. I wake up in the morning laughing and going on and that usually grieves most people but that is who I am, or should I say used to be.

I have moved out of HIM and abiding in HIS strength to handle the day to day of our lives and I have moved into myself and my strength and how many of you know that will not work for long.

Two years ago hurrying around trying to get things done, taking care of Mom and Dad and my business and my home and still having two houses to flip and get rid of, I put on my wonder woman suit with it Bustier and boots and dug my heels in and said I AM WOMAN HEAR ME ROAR!


Mary over at Mary's Writing Nook.. I know this made you smile!

This past March, I crashed. It was not a pretty sight. It frightened my brother, not to mention my sweet DH. My roar became a whimper and my boots and my wonder woman Bustier became tattered rags. I had moved into my own strength and it failed me.

While visiting with my sweet Jean just weeks before she went on to be with the Lord. It was words from her sweet lips that tore my heart and exposed Martha. While we talked we spoke of the times when we remolded an old church building and watched as our congregation grew.

We spoke of the many Sunday mornings that we rocked that old church house until the floors shook. We laughed and spoke of the days that God truly met us in a way that we have not seen since. It was then, through eyes cloudy with sickness that she looked me in the eye and asked me what was I so busy doing that I am not doing what HE has called me to? Just what are you so busy with? She has no idea how that impacted my life but I will share that with her one day. I went there to minister to her but God had other plans.

I sat quiet that afternoon after leaving there and I allowed her words to linger in my mind until the Spirit of the Lord broke my heart. Too busy with what? I do not know.

Matthew 6:20 But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal:

I have removed my business sign from my front yard and over the next couple of month I will close my shop. It is very time consuming and I will begin to do some of the things I love and my son Chris is going to take the business. I have moved around some outside swings and my plan is to go out side during the day and just read and talk to the Lord. Too much time has passed since I have spent quality time with HIM.

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There is NO doubt in my mind that the Lord intends me to be here talking of things of the Lord because that was the original reason for my blog. I want to talk of things of the Lord on my blog, but I want new and fresh things, I want the spirit of the Lord to be alive and living in the words that I type. The Lord so wants to bring life into lives that are suffering and hope to those that are hopeless and I want to be a part of that........ So for a short while I am going to spend quiet time with HIM...

Love you each lots and lots and I will be stopping by each of you from time to time...

AND in these days of uncertainty remember : LOOK UP for your Redemption draweth nigh!



P.S.

I have created a new blog next door :) called Life At My House. That is where I will post most of the time about fun things and things going on out here. I will keep my Samaritan Women just for the times that the Lord gives me something to say. I think I will do better if I keep this just for those times. I want in the blog world Samaritan Women to be only food for the spirit.

So go over to my house and put your sweet face in the following place so that you will know when I come back!

Life At My House

Go over and follow my other blog.

Love Ya's.

Monday, April 20, 2009

She Dances...


I cannot see her very well.. She is in the distance.. She has beautiful blond hair that is natural. I have known her for years and she has never dyed her hair. She appears to be dancing! She doesn't dance, or I have just never seen her dance! What a joy to watch her. She is holding hands with an older man that appears to be so enjoying her company.

I think if I stare long enough it is her husband. He appears younger than I remember. There is an older couple sitting over on what appears to be a bench sitting by a lake. I wish I could see them a bit better, but my eyes are turned back to her. She is laughing like I have not seen her laugh in a long time and there she goes again dancing.

What a sight......

Over in the distance is a man moving closer to her and her husband, HE is very familiar to me but I cannot quite see HIS face. As HE moves closer to her I see her dancing cease and she begins to move closer to HIM. She is not distracted now by anything moving around her, she seems to have only one thing on her mind....... To reach this man that is oh so near her now. She reaches out to touch HIS face just as HE touches her arm. She is home, she is well.... She feels no more pain......... She has touched the face of God......... She is where we all long to be............

Jean......... I will miss you, but would never wish you back....


Jean Trobaugh----------

She touched the face of God about 9:37 p.m. April 20, 2009

Sunday, April 19, 2009

We Remember.......... April 19, 1995

Seconds after a truck bomb of nitrite and fuel detonated next to the federal building, a gaping hole was blasted into its side. During that tragic attack on America's Heartland 168 people died.

Lives Lost because of hatred.......... We remember.

Love to you Oklahoma


Rescue Worker

  • Rebecca Needham Anderson, 37, Midwest City.

    Athenian Building (Job Corps)

  • Anita Christine Hightower, 27, Oklahoma City.

  • Kathryn Elizabeth Ridley, 24, Oklahoma City.

    Oklahoma Water Resources Board Building

  • Robert N. Chipman, 51, Edmond.

  • Trudy Jean Rigney, 31, Midwest City.

  • NINTH FLOOR


    Drug Enforcement Administration



  • Shelly D. Bland, 25, Tuttle.

  • Carrol June "Chip" Fields, 48, Guthrie.

  • Rona Linn Kuehner-Chafey, 35, Oklahoma City.

  • Carrie Ann Lenz, 26, of Chotaw and baby Michael James Lenz III.

  • Kenneth Glenn McCullough, 36, Edmond.

    U.S. Secret Service

  • Cynthia L. Brown, 26, Oklahoma City.

  • Donald Ray Leonard, 50, Edmond.

  • Mickey B. Maroney, 50, Oklahoma City.

  • Linda G. McKinney, 47, Oklahoma City.

  • Kathy Lynn Seidl, 39, Bethel.

  • Alan G. Whicher, 40, Edmond.


    EIGHTH FLOOR
  • U.S. Department of Housing and Urban Development


  • Ted L. Allen, 48, Norman.

  • Peter R. Avillanoza, 56, Oklahoma City.

  • David Neil Burkett, 47, Oklahoma City.

  • Donald Earl Burns, Sr., 63, Oklahoma City.

  • Kimberly Kay Clark, 39, Oklahoma City.

  • Susan Jane Ferrell, 37, Oklahoma City.

  • Dr. George Michael Howard, D.V.M., 45, Vallejo, Calif.

  • Antonio "Tony" C. Reyes, 55, Edmond.

  • Lanny Lee David Scroggins, 46, Yukon.

  • Leora Lee Sells, 57, Oklahoma City.

  • Jules A. Valdez, 51, Edmond.

  • David Jack Walker, 54, Edmond.

  • Michael D. Weaver, 54, Edmond.

  • Frances "Fran" Ann Williams, 48, Oklahoma City.

  • Clarence Eugene Wilson, Sr. 49, Oklahoma.


  • SEVENTH FLOOR


    U.S. Department of Housing and Urban Development



  • Diane E. (Hollingsworth) Althouse, 45, Edmond.

  • Andrea Yvette Blanton, 33, Oklahoma City.

  • Kim R. Cousins, 33, Midwest City.

  • Diana Lynne Day, 38, Oklahoma City.

  • Castine Brooks Hearn Deveroux, 49, Oklahoma City.

  • Judy J. (Froh) Fisher, 45, Oklahoma City.

  • Linda Louise Florence, 43, Oklahoma City.

  • J. Colleen Guiles, 59, Oklahoma City.

  • Thompson Eugene "Gene" Hodges, Jr., 54, Norman.

  • Ann Kreymborg, 57, Oklahoma City.

  • Teresa Lea Taylor Lauderdale, 41, Shawnee.

  • Mary Leasure-Rentie, 39, Bethany.



  • Betsy J. (Beebe) McGonnell, 47, Norman.

  • Patricia Ann Nix, 47, Edmond.

  • Terry Smith Rees, 41, Midwest City.

  • John Thomas Stewart, 51, Oklahoma City.

  • John Karl Van Ess III, 67, Chickasha.

  • Jo Ann Whittenberg, 35, Oklahoma City.


    SIXTH FLOOR


    U.S. Marine Corps Recruiting


  • Sgt. Benjamin LaRanzo Davis, USMC, 29, Edmond.

  • Capt. Randolph A. Guzman, USMC, 28, Castro Valley, Calif.


    FIFTH FLOOR


    U.S. Department of Agriculture


  • Olen Burl Bloomer, 61, Moore.

  • James E. Boles, 50, Oklahoma City.

  • Dr. Margaret L. "Peggy" Clark, 42, Chickasha.

  • Richard (Dick) Cummins, 55, Mustang.

  • Doris "Adele" Higginbottom, 44, Oklahoma City.

  • Carole Sue Khalil, 50, Oklahoma City.

  • Rheta Bender Long, 60, Oklahoma City.

    U.S. Department of Housing and Urban Development

  • Paul Gregory Beatty Broxterman, 42, Edmond.

    U.S. Customs Office

  • Paul D. Ice, 42, Midwest City.

  • Claude Authur Medearis, S.S.A., 41, Norman.


    FOURTH FLOOR


    U.S. Department of Transportation/Federal Highway


  • Lucio Aleman, Jr., 33, Oklahoma City.

  • Mark Allen Bolte, 28, Oklahoma City.

  • Michael Carrillo, 44, Oklahoma City.

  • Larry James Jones, 46. Yukon

  • James K. Martin, 34, Oklahoma City.

  • Ronota Ann Newberry-Woodbridge, 31, Edmond.

  • Jerry Lee Parker, 45, Norman.

  • Michelle A. Reeder, 33, Oklahoma City.

  • Rick L. Tomlin, 46, Piedmont.

  • Johnny Allen Wade, 42, Edmond.

  • John A. Youngblood, 52, Yukon.

    U.S. Army Recruiting Battalion

  • Sgt. 1st Class Lola Bolden, U.S. Army, 40, Birmingham, Ala.

  • Karen Gist Carr, 32, Midwest City.

  • Peggy Louise Holland, 37, Oklahoma City.

  • John C. Moss III., 50, Oklahoma City.

  • Victoria "Vickey" L. Sohn, 36, Moore.

  • Dolores "Dee" Stratton, 51, Moore.

  • Kayla Marie Titsworth, 3 1/2, Lawton.

  • Wanda Lee Watkins, 49, Oklahoma City.


    THIRD FLOOR


    Defense Security Service


  • Harley Richard Cottingham, 46, Oklahoma City.

  • Peter L. DeMaster, 44, Oklahoma City.

  • Norma "Jean" Johnson, 62, Oklahoma City.

  • Larry L. Turner, 42, Oklahoma City.

  • Robert G. Westberry, 57, Oklahoma City.

    Federal Employees Credit Union

  • Woodrow Clifford "Woody" Brady, 41, Oklahoma City.

  • Kimberly Ruth Burgess, 29, Oklahoma City.

  • Kathy A. Finley, 44, Yukon.

  • Jamie (Fialkowski) Genzer, 32, Wellston.

  • Sheila R. Gigger-Driver, 28, Oklahoma City and baby Gregory N. Driver II.

  • Linda Coleen Housley, 53, Oklahoma City.

  • Robbin Ann Huff, 37, Bethany and baby Amber Denise Huff.

  • Christi Yolanda Jenkins, 32, Edmond.

  • Alvin J. Justes, 54, Oklahoma City.

  • Valerie Jo Koelsch, 33, Oklahoma City.

  • Kathy Cagle Leinen, 47, Oklahoma ity.

  • Claudette (Duke) Meek, 43, Oklahoma City.

  • Frankie Ann Merrell, 23, Oklahoma City.

  • Jill Diane Randolph, 27, Oklahoma City.

  • Claudine Ritter, 48, Oklahoma City.

  • Christy Rosas, 22, Moore.

  • Sonja Lynn Sanders, 27, Moore.

  • Karan Howell Shepherd, 27, Moore.

  • Victoria Jeanette Texter, 37, Oklahoma City.

  • Virginia M. Thompson, 56, El Reno.

  • Tresia Jo "Mathes" Worton, 28, Oklahoma City.


    SECOND FLOOR


    America's Kids Child Development Center


  • Miss Baylee Almon, 1, Oklahoma City.

  • Danielle Nicole Bell, 15 months, Oklahoma City.

  • Zachary Taylor Chavez, 3, Oklahoma City.

  • Dana LeAnne Cooper, 24, Moore.

  • Anthony Christopher Cooper II, 2, Moore.

  • Antonio Ansara Cooper, Jr., 6 months, Midwest City.

  • Aaron M. Coverdale, 5 1/2, Oklahoma City.

  • Elijah S. Coverdale, 2 1/2, Oklahoma City.

  • Jaci Rae Coyne, 14 months, Moore.

  • Brenda Faye Daniels, 42, Oklahoma City.

  • Taylor Santoi Eaves, 8 months, Midwest City.

  • Tevin D'Aundrae Garrett, 16 months, Midwest City.

  • Kevin "Lee" Gottshall II, 6 months, Norman.

  • Wanda Lee Howell, 34, Spencer.

  • Blake Ryan Kennedy, 1 1/2, Amber.

  • Dominique Ravae (Johnson)-London, 2, Oklahoma City.

  • Chase Dalton Smith, 3, Oklahoma City.

  • Colton Wade Smith, 2, Oklahoma City.

    Visitor

  • Scott D. Williams, 24, Tuttle.


    FIRST FLOOR


    Social Security Administration


  • Teresa Antionette Alexander, 33, Oklahoma City.

  • Richard A. Allen, 46, Oklahoma City

  • Pamela Cleveland Argo, 36, Oklahoma City.

  • Saundra G. "Sandy" Avery, 34, Midwest City.

  • Calvin Battle, 62, Oklahoma City.

  • Peola Battle, 56, Oklahoma City.

  • Oleta C. Biddy, 54, Tuttle.

  • Casandra Kay Booker, 25, Oklahoma City.

  • Carol Louise Bowers, 53, Yukon.

  • Peachlyn Bradley, 3, Oklahoma City.

  • Gabreon D.L. Bruce, 3 months, Oklahoma City.

  • Katherine Louise Cregan, 60, Oklahoma City.

  • Ashley Megan Eckles, 4, Guthrie.

  • Don Fritzler, 64, Oklahoma City.

  • Mary Anne Fritzler, 57, Oklahoma City.

  • Laura Jane Garrison, 61, Oklahoma City.

  • Margaret Betterton Goodson, 54, Oklahoma City.

  • Ethel L. Griffin, 55, Edmond.

  • Cheryl E. Hammon, 44, Oklahoma City.

  • Ronald Vernon Harding, Sr., 55, Oklahoma City.

  • Thomas Lynn Hawthorne, Sr., 52, Choctaw.

  • Dr. Charles E. Hurlburt, 73, Oklahoma City.

  • Jean Nutting Hurlburt, 67, Oklahoma City.

  • Raymond "Lee" Johnson, 59, Oklahoma City.

  • LaKesha Richardson Levy, 21, Midwest City.

  • Aurelia Donna Luster, 43, Guthrie.

  • Robert Lee Luster, Jr., 45, Guthrie.

  • Rev. Gilbert X. Martinez, 35, Oklahoma City.

  • Cartney J. McRaven, 19, Midwest City.

  • Derwin W. Miller, 27, Oklahoma City.

  • Eula Leigh Mitchell, 64, Oklahoma City.

  • Emilio Tapia, 50, Oklahoma ity.

  • Charlotte Andrea Lewis Thomas, 43, Oklahoma City.

  • Michael George Thompson, 47, Yukon.

  • LaRue A. Treanor, 55, Guthrie.

  • Luther H. Treanor, 61, Guthrie.

  • Robert N. Walker, Jr., 52, Oklahoma City.

  • Julie Marie Welch, 23, Oklahoma City.

  • W. Stephen Williams, 42, Cashion.

  • Sharon Louise Wood-Chesnut, 47, Oklahoma City.

    General Services Administration

  • Steven Douglas Curry, 44, Norman.

  • Michael L. Loudenslager, 48, Harrah.

  • Sunday, April 12, 2009

    Easter With Jean




    Just stopping in to share with you my morning with Jean. It was a stormy rainy day here in Oklahoma and we had thunder storms all night. It was really a beautifully cool morning with a light rain falling.
    I got over there about 10:15..
    Jean has moved so close to Heaven that she no long communicates here.. She has no energy to speak and most of the time her eyes are closed.


    I took her flowers.

    She knew I was there, she opened her eyes for just a moment and smiled when I kissed her cheek. I sobbed and sobbed and could not help myself.

    I moved the chair up closer to her bed side and I opened my bible to Matthew and read to her the story of Easter. I read slowly as the sobs would rise in my throat and I need to stop and gain control. After finishing the reading in Matthew I read to her from Isaiah 53:5. It is my favorite book in the bible and one of my favorite scriptures.

    But he [was] wounded for our transgressions, [he was] bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace [was] upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.


    I then put my cheek right on her cheek and whispered as I prayed. She had little strength but as I prayed she lifted her hand into the air and praised the Father with me. I cried and my tears fell on her face. I whispered to the Father that she was tired and ready to go home. I whispered to the Father that she has a Father and a Mother and a husband waiting.
    I sat for a long time just holding both her hands.. She would grip tighter when I started to leave or move.
    At one point I sang to her......... Amazing Grace and In The Garden... Now I am not a singer so it was just a joyful noise. She just laid there and did not move.



    Then something happened...... I began to pray in my heavenly language. I pray in the natural and I pray in the spirit.. When I began to speak in tongues her eyes opened wide and she looked at me...... Wide eyed. She watched me closely as I prayer........ It was the most amazing thing.. Her spirit was hearing my words and understood the language. Her spirit man understood! Her spirit is alive and well and ready to go to the Father.

    ........ How precious a time it was.......

    I sat quiet for a long time and she slipped in to a sound sleep... I kissed her on the cheek and I knew that I would not see her again this side of heaven.



    Saturday, April 11, 2009