A Quick Glimpse

I sat across the little room from her, we were waiting on the Dr to return with her discharge papers. She had come home from the hospital just hours before and now at 3:00 a.m. we were again sitting in the emergency room of the local hospital. Hallucinations , they started Sunday evening around 9:30 p.m. sister Kathy called me concerned. I in turn called home health and their recommendation was emergency room. Could be bad reaction to the new antibiotic or it could be mini strokes. She was worn out, I was worn out, my sweet husband that was sitting outside in the waiting room was worn out. We had been there since 10:30 p.m. and after many more tests and blood test and x-rays and CT scans she was pronounced "just fine", and diagnosed with
Sundowners syndrome.
Have you ever heard of that? I have not, but now I know. You can click on the link above LATTER if you would like to know.
However, although very interesting, it is not the subject of this post.

As I sat across from her in the wee hours of Monday morning, I studied her face. I watched her very carefully and traced with my eyes the lines that the years have etched in her face. My mind drifted back many years ago when a much younger Denise studied the face of another precious little lady by the name of Ida. She was my grandmother, my mothers mother. I remember her face that day as though it was yesterday. I remember the lines that life had also etched upon her skin. I miss her......... but I digress.

Earlier in the evening after bringing Mom home from the hospital and getting them settled in and asking Kathy to stay one more night, me and Dennis settled in for what we thought would be the first quiet evening in a while. We watched the last 30 minutes of some movie and it was the very last 5 minutes of that movie that would moved my soul while sitting in that little exam room at the hospital.
I used to find it amazing when God would do something so strange, but over the years I have come to the understanding that God is God and HE can touch us in such an unusual way that there is no doubt that it is God.

I studied her face. She sat quietly. Mom is a very passive person and even at 3:00 in the morning and after so many tests and long hours of waiting she sat and laughed and talked about times in her youth. My heart broke while watching her laugh and speaking of times that I could not share. She was somewhere else, she was young and running around the old farm house with her brothers Edward and James. Yet the woman that I saw was old and tired and nearing the end of life. It was at the moment that I flashed back to the last five minutes of a movie earlier in the evening. There were about 6 or 7 young boys around the age of 12 and 13 running down a long hall way headed out double doors. They were dressed in jeans and tennis shoes and leather jackets and letter jackets. They raced each other to the doors jumping to see who could touch the ceiling. Laughing and shouting and wrestling each other as they race to the doors. They were young and full of life and laughter. There are no lines of life yet etched on their face. They hit those double doors at the end of that long hall and out into the sunshine they ran. I remember watching them and my mind drifted back to my youth and how simple life was.

It was then that the Holy Spirit exploded in my spirit man these words.

2 Corinthians 4:16 For which cause we faint not; but though our outward man perish, yet the inward [man] is renewed day by day.

As I sat there hearing these words in my inner man I was overwhelmed with the love of the Father. I am thankful that in times of sadness and fear of the future, HE moves quickly to bring comfort.

How can we possible understand the joys that await us, for ear has not heard and it has not even entered into our minds the joys that HE has prepared. Yet, sitting there that early morning HE gave me a quick glimpse into what awaits us. I smiled as I continued to watch her run and laugh and remember her youth, and even in the heaviness of the moment HE brought to me such great light.
HE loves us and HE is ALWAYS closer than then breath that we breath. HE brought great comfort to my heart in an instant.



Our flesh bodies are perishing, we know that, but our inner man, the spirit man, the real us is growing in strength and wisdom and being renewed each day........Renewed how? By the breath of God by the life of Christ...........It is the life of Christ that gave us new life and it is that life that each day renews us......... We look on the outward man.......... HE sees the inner man and HE sees renewal...... HE sees life.
It cause me to cry, HE does not see my mom as I see her, HE sees her young and full of life and vitality and HE sees her renewed and strong in spirit.........

I rejoice in the knowledge that my mom's name is written in the Lambs Book of Life and each day as her outer man withers, her inner man grows strong and when time comes to be loosed from the bonds of this perishing body she will burst forth into the sunshine......

HE gave me just a quick glimpse, HE is a good God.