Thankful Thursday

....... It is so late and I cannot sleep...... many things on my mind and as I watch the news every evening (Fox News, to which I am addicted) I so understand that the America that we knew as little girls is passing away in front of our eyes....... So today I am Thankful for:

A Grandmother that taught me that life is precious and each day is such a gift from God...... She taught me that age is just a number and to be bored is almost a sin against God....... I am thankful that I have no understanding of bored....

I am thankful that when I just cannot see past the cares of this day His eyes have already seen my tomorrow...........

I am thankful that His word is truth and no amount of facts can erase the word that abides in my heart and no amount of political correctness can sway me from the foundation that He has laid in my life.........

I am thankful that by the witness of two or three His will is made known in my life and just this past week He has spoken into my spirit man instruction for the coming days in my life.

I am thankful that when I am so tired, He holds the pillow where I can lay my head..........

I am thankful for my soul mate named Dennis, he is my most amazing gift from the Father God that I must thank Him for each day........ There are not words to share with you the miracle that my Father God performed that day in April when He gave me Dennis...........

I am thankful that even when I watch creation groan around me waiting for the day of redemption, I know that He draweth nigh! Luk 21:28
And when these things begin to come to pass, then look up, and lift up your heads; for your redemption draweth nigh.

Rom 8:22
For we know that the whole creation groaneth and travaileth in pain together until now.

Rom 8:23
And not only [they], but ourselves also, which have the firstfruits of the Spirit, even we ourselves groan within ourselves, waiting for the adoption, [to wit], the redemption of our body.

The Dr's Appointment

I just want to bring you up to date on my Dr's appointment on Tuesday. Here is what I understand.

........ The disc that is bulging to the back on the MRI film is not bulging as far on the Mylogram and the CT Scan. The Dr was wonderful.... This is the first time I have seen him....... He is the big dog....... The surgeon. The CT Scan shows trouble in L4 and L5 which is causing my back and leg pain........ He stood and explained to me and Dennis exactly what we could do and what we could opt to do.......... To make a long story short......... He does not know why my toes are numb as the CT does not show enough damage to cause my toes to go numb. However he also said that he does not make a decision based upon an MRI or CT scan but on the patient. I so appreciated that statement.

Several months ago I had seen a neurosurgeon for a nerve test and it showed nerve damage in the right leg and some in the left..... Very minimal but damage ........ Dr Low stated that anytime the neurosurgeon sends someone with nerve damage it gets his attention regardless of the CT scan... There are instances that sometimes there is more damage that they cannot see on the tests... Thus he offered me to make a decision if I wanted to have surgery now or go home and see if it stays the same or if it gets worse. He cannot explain the pain in my legs from the tests but did not deny that there might be something going on that he cannot see......

The lower back pain is from the L4 and L5 bulge......... Down the back of my legs is most likely the sciatic nerve pressure.........

He had another lady as myself just last month where the test did not show much damage and there was no nerve damage but she insisted that they fix her back, once in surgery they found more damage than the test showed........ sooooooooo Dennis and I talked and decided that we would come home and walk and exercise and see what happens in the next few months. The Dr stated that if I came back in a few months just unable to handle the pain that he would not require more tests......... Very very nice man and very compassionate...

He also said that I could go about my life as before and if it hurt my back not to do it........ hahahah Good advise, but there is nothing that I can do to cause this to cripple me unless I do something foolish....... sooooooooooo I am back to my life and my garden and the things that I love to do and see how things go. I am pretty

tough but know my limitations. He did take a blood test for an arthritis panel to see if I have the beginnings of Rheumatoid Arthritis....... I have decided not to have that.......... I will have the results tomorrow....... He is saying that could cause my leg pain and the numbness......... but....... I do not accept that........

Soooooooooo that is the jest of that.......No surgery for now and that is my decision and Dennis agrees......... I will stay on my diet (I have lost 16 lbs so far) and walk and exercise and see how things go......... I am encouraged! I am thankful that the disk has reduced in size since the MRI........ Whether it was the disk getting better or the test looking at a different angle.......... It is God........

Thus.......... I am up and around and ready to try and get some things finished. And enjoy my summer without tiptoeing around afraid of hurting my back..... Dennis and I are going to schedule a few days away and take some R & R....... We have not gotten away since October of last year........ I think it is time we took some time for us, don't you think?

NOW...............

I am reading a book that if you have not seen or heard of it you need to!!!!!!! It is called "The Shack"

I have laughed and cried ......... You must read this book......... I have read many many books but this one will touch your spirit man in a way that no other book in a long times has done......... Find it in your book store, read it and then pass it one...... I am going to read mine again and then Dennis is going to read it and then I am going to give it away here on my blog...........

Love you gals!

Life............ Ain't It Good

Just got home from the ER ....Mom fell and busted her head this morning at 5:00 am......... so I have not yet had time to post on my Dr appointment......... I will do that sometime today or tonight........ I am going to take a nap..................

Mom is fine and is home with three staples in her head............... CT scan showed normal and thus they let her come home................

Life............ ain't it good!

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