Monday, April 20, 2009

She Dances...


I cannot see her very well.. She is in the distance.. She has beautiful blond hair that is natural. I have known her for years and she has never dyed her hair. She appears to be dancing! She doesn't dance, or I have just never seen her dance! What a joy to watch her. She is holding hands with an older man that appears to be so enjoying her company.

I think if I stare long enough it is her husband. He appears younger than I remember. There is an older couple sitting over on what appears to be a bench sitting by a lake. I wish I could see them a bit better, but my eyes are turned back to her. She is laughing like I have not seen her laugh in a long time and there she goes again dancing.

What a sight......

Over in the distance is a man moving closer to her and her husband, HE is very familiar to me but I cannot quite see HIS face. As HE moves closer to her I see her dancing cease and she begins to move closer to HIM. She is not distracted now by anything moving around her, she seems to have only one thing on her mind....... To reach this man that is oh so near her now. She reaches out to touch HIS face just as HE touches her arm. She is home, she is well.... She feels no more pain......... She has touched the face of God......... She is where we all long to be............

Jean......... I will miss you, but would never wish you back....


Jean Trobaugh----------

She touched the face of God about 9:37 p.m. April 20, 2009

Sunday, April 19, 2009

We Remember.......... April 19, 1995

Seconds after a truck bomb of nitrite and fuel detonated next to the federal building, a gaping hole was blasted into its side. During that tragic attack on America's Heartland 168 people died.

Lives Lost because of hatred.......... We remember.

Love to you Oklahoma


Rescue Worker

  • Rebecca Needham Anderson, 37, Midwest City.

    Athenian Building (Job Corps)

  • Anita Christine Hightower, 27, Oklahoma City.

  • Kathryn Elizabeth Ridley, 24, Oklahoma City.

    Oklahoma Water Resources Board Building

  • Robert N. Chipman, 51, Edmond.

  • Trudy Jean Rigney, 31, Midwest City.

  • NINTH FLOOR


    Drug Enforcement Administration



  • Shelly D. Bland, 25, Tuttle.

  • Carrol June "Chip" Fields, 48, Guthrie.

  • Rona Linn Kuehner-Chafey, 35, Oklahoma City.

  • Carrie Ann Lenz, 26, of Chotaw and baby Michael James Lenz III.

  • Kenneth Glenn McCullough, 36, Edmond.

    U.S. Secret Service

  • Cynthia L. Brown, 26, Oklahoma City.

  • Donald Ray Leonard, 50, Edmond.

  • Mickey B. Maroney, 50, Oklahoma City.

  • Linda G. McKinney, 47, Oklahoma City.

  • Kathy Lynn Seidl, 39, Bethel.

  • Alan G. Whicher, 40, Edmond.


    EIGHTH FLOOR
  • U.S. Department of Housing and Urban Development


  • Ted L. Allen, 48, Norman.

  • Peter R. Avillanoza, 56, Oklahoma City.

  • David Neil Burkett, 47, Oklahoma City.

  • Donald Earl Burns, Sr., 63, Oklahoma City.

  • Kimberly Kay Clark, 39, Oklahoma City.

  • Susan Jane Ferrell, 37, Oklahoma City.

  • Dr. George Michael Howard, D.V.M., 45, Vallejo, Calif.

  • Antonio "Tony" C. Reyes, 55, Edmond.

  • Lanny Lee David Scroggins, 46, Yukon.

  • Leora Lee Sells, 57, Oklahoma City.

  • Jules A. Valdez, 51, Edmond.

  • David Jack Walker, 54, Edmond.

  • Michael D. Weaver, 54, Edmond.

  • Frances "Fran" Ann Williams, 48, Oklahoma City.

  • Clarence Eugene Wilson, Sr. 49, Oklahoma.


  • SEVENTH FLOOR


    U.S. Department of Housing and Urban Development



  • Diane E. (Hollingsworth) Althouse, 45, Edmond.

  • Andrea Yvette Blanton, 33, Oklahoma City.

  • Kim R. Cousins, 33, Midwest City.

  • Diana Lynne Day, 38, Oklahoma City.

  • Castine Brooks Hearn Deveroux, 49, Oklahoma City.

  • Judy J. (Froh) Fisher, 45, Oklahoma City.

  • Linda Louise Florence, 43, Oklahoma City.

  • J. Colleen Guiles, 59, Oklahoma City.

  • Thompson Eugene "Gene" Hodges, Jr., 54, Norman.

  • Ann Kreymborg, 57, Oklahoma City.

  • Teresa Lea Taylor Lauderdale, 41, Shawnee.

  • Mary Leasure-Rentie, 39, Bethany.



  • Betsy J. (Beebe) McGonnell, 47, Norman.

  • Patricia Ann Nix, 47, Edmond.

  • Terry Smith Rees, 41, Midwest City.

  • John Thomas Stewart, 51, Oklahoma City.

  • John Karl Van Ess III, 67, Chickasha.

  • Jo Ann Whittenberg, 35, Oklahoma City.


    SIXTH FLOOR


    U.S. Marine Corps Recruiting


  • Sgt. Benjamin LaRanzo Davis, USMC, 29, Edmond.

  • Capt. Randolph A. Guzman, USMC, 28, Castro Valley, Calif.


    FIFTH FLOOR


    U.S. Department of Agriculture


  • Olen Burl Bloomer, 61, Moore.

  • James E. Boles, 50, Oklahoma City.

  • Dr. Margaret L. "Peggy" Clark, 42, Chickasha.

  • Richard (Dick) Cummins, 55, Mustang.

  • Doris "Adele" Higginbottom, 44, Oklahoma City.

  • Carole Sue Khalil, 50, Oklahoma City.

  • Rheta Bender Long, 60, Oklahoma City.

    U.S. Department of Housing and Urban Development

  • Paul Gregory Beatty Broxterman, 42, Edmond.

    U.S. Customs Office

  • Paul D. Ice, 42, Midwest City.

  • Claude Authur Medearis, S.S.A., 41, Norman.


    FOURTH FLOOR


    U.S. Department of Transportation/Federal Highway


  • Lucio Aleman, Jr., 33, Oklahoma City.

  • Mark Allen Bolte, 28, Oklahoma City.

  • Michael Carrillo, 44, Oklahoma City.

  • Larry James Jones, 46. Yukon

  • James K. Martin, 34, Oklahoma City.

  • Ronota Ann Newberry-Woodbridge, 31, Edmond.

  • Jerry Lee Parker, 45, Norman.

  • Michelle A. Reeder, 33, Oklahoma City.

  • Rick L. Tomlin, 46, Piedmont.

  • Johnny Allen Wade, 42, Edmond.

  • John A. Youngblood, 52, Yukon.

    U.S. Army Recruiting Battalion

  • Sgt. 1st Class Lola Bolden, U.S. Army, 40, Birmingham, Ala.

  • Karen Gist Carr, 32, Midwest City.

  • Peggy Louise Holland, 37, Oklahoma City.

  • John C. Moss III., 50, Oklahoma City.

  • Victoria "Vickey" L. Sohn, 36, Moore.

  • Dolores "Dee" Stratton, 51, Moore.

  • Kayla Marie Titsworth, 3 1/2, Lawton.

  • Wanda Lee Watkins, 49, Oklahoma City.


    THIRD FLOOR


    Defense Security Service


  • Harley Richard Cottingham, 46, Oklahoma City.

  • Peter L. DeMaster, 44, Oklahoma City.

  • Norma "Jean" Johnson, 62, Oklahoma City.

  • Larry L. Turner, 42, Oklahoma City.

  • Robert G. Westberry, 57, Oklahoma City.

    Federal Employees Credit Union

  • Woodrow Clifford "Woody" Brady, 41, Oklahoma City.

  • Kimberly Ruth Burgess, 29, Oklahoma City.

  • Kathy A. Finley, 44, Yukon.

  • Jamie (Fialkowski) Genzer, 32, Wellston.

  • Sheila R. Gigger-Driver, 28, Oklahoma City and baby Gregory N. Driver II.

  • Linda Coleen Housley, 53, Oklahoma City.

  • Robbin Ann Huff, 37, Bethany and baby Amber Denise Huff.

  • Christi Yolanda Jenkins, 32, Edmond.

  • Alvin J. Justes, 54, Oklahoma City.

  • Valerie Jo Koelsch, 33, Oklahoma City.

  • Kathy Cagle Leinen, 47, Oklahoma ity.

  • Claudette (Duke) Meek, 43, Oklahoma City.

  • Frankie Ann Merrell, 23, Oklahoma City.

  • Jill Diane Randolph, 27, Oklahoma City.

  • Claudine Ritter, 48, Oklahoma City.

  • Christy Rosas, 22, Moore.

  • Sonja Lynn Sanders, 27, Moore.

  • Karan Howell Shepherd, 27, Moore.

  • Victoria Jeanette Texter, 37, Oklahoma City.

  • Virginia M. Thompson, 56, El Reno.

  • Tresia Jo "Mathes" Worton, 28, Oklahoma City.


    SECOND FLOOR


    America's Kids Child Development Center


  • Miss Baylee Almon, 1, Oklahoma City.

  • Danielle Nicole Bell, 15 months, Oklahoma City.

  • Zachary Taylor Chavez, 3, Oklahoma City.

  • Dana LeAnne Cooper, 24, Moore.

  • Anthony Christopher Cooper II, 2, Moore.

  • Antonio Ansara Cooper, Jr., 6 months, Midwest City.

  • Aaron M. Coverdale, 5 1/2, Oklahoma City.

  • Elijah S. Coverdale, 2 1/2, Oklahoma City.

  • Jaci Rae Coyne, 14 months, Moore.

  • Brenda Faye Daniels, 42, Oklahoma City.

  • Taylor Santoi Eaves, 8 months, Midwest City.

  • Tevin D'Aundrae Garrett, 16 months, Midwest City.

  • Kevin "Lee" Gottshall II, 6 months, Norman.

  • Wanda Lee Howell, 34, Spencer.

  • Blake Ryan Kennedy, 1 1/2, Amber.

  • Dominique Ravae (Johnson)-London, 2, Oklahoma City.

  • Chase Dalton Smith, 3, Oklahoma City.

  • Colton Wade Smith, 2, Oklahoma City.

    Visitor

  • Scott D. Williams, 24, Tuttle.


    FIRST FLOOR


    Social Security Administration


  • Teresa Antionette Alexander, 33, Oklahoma City.

  • Richard A. Allen, 46, Oklahoma City

  • Pamela Cleveland Argo, 36, Oklahoma City.

  • Saundra G. "Sandy" Avery, 34, Midwest City.

  • Calvin Battle, 62, Oklahoma City.

  • Peola Battle, 56, Oklahoma City.

  • Oleta C. Biddy, 54, Tuttle.

  • Casandra Kay Booker, 25, Oklahoma City.

  • Carol Louise Bowers, 53, Yukon.

  • Peachlyn Bradley, 3, Oklahoma City.

  • Gabreon D.L. Bruce, 3 months, Oklahoma City.

  • Katherine Louise Cregan, 60, Oklahoma City.

  • Ashley Megan Eckles, 4, Guthrie.

  • Don Fritzler, 64, Oklahoma City.

  • Mary Anne Fritzler, 57, Oklahoma City.

  • Laura Jane Garrison, 61, Oklahoma City.

  • Margaret Betterton Goodson, 54, Oklahoma City.

  • Ethel L. Griffin, 55, Edmond.

  • Cheryl E. Hammon, 44, Oklahoma City.

  • Ronald Vernon Harding, Sr., 55, Oklahoma City.

  • Thomas Lynn Hawthorne, Sr., 52, Choctaw.

  • Dr. Charles E. Hurlburt, 73, Oklahoma City.

  • Jean Nutting Hurlburt, 67, Oklahoma City.

  • Raymond "Lee" Johnson, 59, Oklahoma City.

  • LaKesha Richardson Levy, 21, Midwest City.

  • Aurelia Donna Luster, 43, Guthrie.

  • Robert Lee Luster, Jr., 45, Guthrie.

  • Rev. Gilbert X. Martinez, 35, Oklahoma City.

  • Cartney J. McRaven, 19, Midwest City.

  • Derwin W. Miller, 27, Oklahoma City.

  • Eula Leigh Mitchell, 64, Oklahoma City.

  • Emilio Tapia, 50, Oklahoma ity.

  • Charlotte Andrea Lewis Thomas, 43, Oklahoma City.

  • Michael George Thompson, 47, Yukon.

  • LaRue A. Treanor, 55, Guthrie.

  • Luther H. Treanor, 61, Guthrie.

  • Robert N. Walker, Jr., 52, Oklahoma City.

  • Julie Marie Welch, 23, Oklahoma City.

  • W. Stephen Williams, 42, Cashion.

  • Sharon Louise Wood-Chesnut, 47, Oklahoma City.

    General Services Administration

  • Steven Douglas Curry, 44, Norman.

  • Michael L. Loudenslager, 48, Harrah.

  • Sunday, April 12, 2009

    Easter With Jean




    Just stopping in to share with you my morning with Jean. It was a stormy rainy day here in Oklahoma and we had thunder storms all night. It was really a beautifully cool morning with a light rain falling.
    I got over there about 10:15..
    Jean has moved so close to Heaven that she no long communicates here.. She has no energy to speak and most of the time her eyes are closed.


    I took her flowers.

    She knew I was there, she opened her eyes for just a moment and smiled when I kissed her cheek. I sobbed and sobbed and could not help myself.

    I moved the chair up closer to her bed side and I opened my bible to Matthew and read to her the story of Easter. I read slowly as the sobs would rise in my throat and I need to stop and gain control. After finishing the reading in Matthew I read to her from Isaiah 53:5. It is my favorite book in the bible and one of my favorite scriptures.

    But he [was] wounded for our transgressions, [he was] bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace [was] upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.


    I then put my cheek right on her cheek and whispered as I prayed. She had little strength but as I prayed she lifted her hand into the air and praised the Father with me. I cried and my tears fell on her face. I whispered to the Father that she was tired and ready to go home. I whispered to the Father that she has a Father and a Mother and a husband waiting.
    I sat for a long time just holding both her hands.. She would grip tighter when I started to leave or move.
    At one point I sang to her......... Amazing Grace and In The Garden... Now I am not a singer so it was just a joyful noise. She just laid there and did not move.



    Then something happened...... I began to pray in my heavenly language. I pray in the natural and I pray in the spirit.. When I began to speak in tongues her eyes opened wide and she looked at me...... Wide eyed. She watched me closely as I prayer........ It was the most amazing thing.. Her spirit was hearing my words and understood the language. Her spirit man understood! Her spirit is alive and well and ready to go to the Father.

    ........ How precious a time it was.......

    I sat quiet for a long time and she slipped in to a sound sleep... I kissed her on the cheek and I knew that I would not see her again this side of heaven.



    Saturday, April 11, 2009

    Thursday, April 9, 2009

    What's Love Got To Do With It?



    Easter it is the culmination of everything that Christ lived to do. We that call ourselves Christians and name the name of Christ as savior and Lord believe that HE died and HE rose again on the third day. It is the core of our faith and the center of everything that springs hope in our hearts. HE died yet HE lives, just as this body of ours will die yet we will live.


    Calvary, the beginning of a new dispensation. Dispensation of Grace replaces the dispensation of the law. We moved from sacrifice and law to freedom and grace. Calvary..... The focal point of our vision and the heartbeat of our faith. My spirit man sobs with joy when the reality of Calvary permeates into my soul. Calvary ----- Where life begins not ends.



    Calvary the completed work of Christ. HE did the dying and HE tells us now to do the living. HE walked the path of obedience and HE freely hung on that cross. Calvary is not the end of the work that Christ came to do but the beginning. Calvary where the kingdom of God now comes to live on earth in the hearts of every believer...






    Luk 17:21 Neither shall they say, Lo here! or, lo there! for, behold, the kingdom of God is within you.


    Calvary.. the promise of life and life more abundant. We all long for heaven but Christ says to us live now. We were reconciled back to the Father and all the goodness that HE brings with that reconciliation. Life NOW.........


    Calvary is the gift of God to a lost and dying world that has no hope to live, let alone die. If you need a reason to live then Calvary provides that reason. If you need a reason to hope then that hope lies within that wooden cross on Golgotha. We needed a pathway in which to walk and Calvary leads the way. We look upon the cross that Jesus and rejoice in knowing that life as God sees it began on Calvary. We can approach the throne of God with boldness. HE came and died so that we might LIVE now and rejoice in that freedom that he bought.


    Calvary, a place where God and man met. Calvary a force that tore the veil of the temple from the top to the bottom and gave us entrance into the throne room of God. Calvary is the spoken invitation for us to come and dine with the creator of the entire universe. Calvary says to the world of the lost and the dying that love conquers all things. Love handed Jesus to the crowd that day, love held Him on the cross. Love is why God turned His back and love is the reason that Jesus chose to stay suspended between heaven and earth.
    Take time this Easter weekend to see the Kingdom of God in your life. Ask the Father to give you a greater awareness of the love that cost Him Jesus. Let us open our hearts to the love of God that will drive us to our knees and repent with many tears of the hardness of our hearts.

    Embrace the life that was bought and paid for on Calvary and share that life with those around you. Touch a heart and a life and when we do we are bringing the Kingdom of God to one more life, to one more soul. We are telling the world that Calvary is life. Calvary is freedom from fear. Death has no hold and Heaven is ours. Thank your God that there are no boundaries when it comes to redeeming a soul.





    What’s love got to do with it,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, Everything.
    Girls have a blessed Easter weekend.. I will go over to see Jean tomorrow and again on Sunday. I want to sit and read her the story of Christ, the risen Savior.

    Love you each and every one..